Defying gravity?

'When someone asked me what that "Surrender" blog-blurt was all about, I had no ready answer except that I am tired of being anchored down by the gravity of the institutional church. The positives of Gravity in keeping all things secured to the earth, have to be overcome when one wishes to fly. Years ago, a small number of people thought differently about flight, and they changed travel forever. Our local church does everything in its power to keep us all grounded in standard faith. Kudos! But what about the miracles? Rohr's thoughts, that miracles rarely happen in the institution but through the concerted efforts of its small groups, make sense to me at this point in my life. I have been verrrry frustrated over the last few years of fighting the consolidated church's gravity. Under other church leadership I used to fly. One staff member grew to listen to me, get a quizzical look on her face, nod and say, "Go ahead, try it." I never thanked her enough.

I miss it. I miss that staff encouragement. Real encouragement to create opportunities to reach people, not just filling a void in a list of assigned duties. I miss it enough to surrender. I surrender to the fact that many well meaning people want the parish to run in a standard fashion. That is fine. But now that I understand what Rohr was trying to say in 'Falling Upward', I can let them do it without frustration. I can surrender. I surrender to the fact that there is no room for cardinals that see reflections in the glass and want to fly. No room for cardinals who make 'bonks' that seem stupid to the people living within the walls of the parish. That cardinal of mine will eventually fly away, either because he will have realized that there is no one to fight on the other side of the glass, or because he has literally bashed his brains in from the intensity of his efforts. I don't intend to leave my brains smashed up against the brick of our church!

So..... I surrender. I will surrender to letting the staff run the church. I surrender to the fact that our local church does not really trust what its people see and feel. I surrender to the fact that my talents will never be used to their fullest if I continually bow to the institution. I will respect the institution (and those that run it) as the safe haven Rohr expounded it to be. I simply can no longer deny the reflection that I see in the glass. No one would have ever found out that 747's could fly hundreds of people across the country unless someone first believed in defying gravity.